You know, they tell you in school to think outside the box, but it's they who keep us bound. They who place labels, set rules. There is one right answer among innumerable wrong ones. They encourage us to ask questions -- then scoff before giving answers."Is LOST an emotion?" you ask.
No. They say. No no no. LOST is a state of NOT KNOWING WHERE YOU ARE. Emotions are FEELINGS. You ARE lost -- you can't FEEL lost.
Can't you?
By their definition, emotions are simple. Are words. Are defineable. MAKE SENSE.
When I smile, I'm HAPPY. When I frown, I'm ANGRY. When I cry, I'm SAD.
I smile, I frown, I cry, I laugh.
But what about when you're WAITING, and the snow is falling, and you aren't cold but you aren't warm, and you want the waiting to STOP and for LIFE to go on, but you NEVER want this moment to END? And you see the snowflakes DANCE, whispering past, decorating your hair -- and you are terribly, terribly LONELY, but you are basking in the FREEDOM of being by yourself?
How do you lable that? How do you catch it, tie it up, put it in a box, shove it in a book, and teach it?
'Cause they don't, you know.
They don't teach you what it means when you want to stand STILL, never move, and paradoxically you want to SCREAM and pull out your hair and break things. They don't tell you what it means when you want ADVENTURE, romance, excitement, danger -- and simultaniously you want to curl up under the covers, hear your mother's voice, and know that EVERYTHING will be OKAY, that you never, ever have to move.
Because they don't know.
They don't understand that feeling of itching to MOVE and longing to STAY.
And here, in this moment, perhaps you've found it. Perhaps you've caught it. Maybe you could tie it up, put it in a box, and shove it in a book? Could you teach it?
No. Because you don't understand it either.
But it's there.
And it's real.
And one day you'll catch it.
And then you'll let it FREE.
But the wait is over. The feeling's gone.
And your fear is that you will forget....
♥Captain Whitney
"We're alive. We're happy." Shouldn't that be enough?
2 comments:
Wow, Kat!e!!! that is really cool.How do you describe the feeling of wanting to move, but you never want to leave. I feel that way all the time. You just want to get up and do something! but at the same time you don't want to do anything! Like someone is trying to tear you apart!!! I think it is all a scam! They are brain washing us into mindless robots!!! Way to think out of the box and not be punished!!!
Good questions... If only there was a way to answer them :) A.K.A.
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